Sometimes I wonder how differently my 18-year old self will react over something compared to my 25-year old self today. Case in point: My family and I are planning on moving to a new home soon, and I just noticed that while years ago, I may still be looking for a house-house... Now, I just seemed to have confined myself to looking at condos and apartments, because while they are not exactly what my dreams are made of, they are more affordable. Thus, they are pretty much what our current reality could fit in. Maybe it's not so bad--being realistic--but sometimes the issue of faith kicks in and I ask myself, could it also be because I'm not believing hard enough? This is not to say, that with our fervor prayers and passionate cry-out to the Lord, we just await with our hands open as our dreams fall from the skies one by one... But maybe as time went by, I just stopped believing that it could happen, that together, we could earn more and that God is gracious enough to bless us...