Celebrate joy!

 Hi everyone! Wow, buhay pa pala ako! Lol! Anyway, so my last post was March and today is September 13, and guess what? I am 6 months pregnant as I type this... SURPRISE! Well, we announced it when I was 8 weeks pregnant and we just wanted to make sure that the baby is fine and had a heartbeat already before we officially announced... but yaaaay!

Hello! Happy 2022, everyone! It's been a pretty wild start of the year, thanks to Omicron. Parang pina-party lang tayo ng Pasko at New Year,  haha! Then after the last firework fired up, almost everyone was nursing a fever, cough, or colds. Our family wasn't exempted. It was Sophia who first caught the colds and cough, then one of her nieces, then it was my turn, then Dennis', then the last one was his younger niece. The virus pretty much just circulated around our home for 2 weeks, but praise God we are all okay now. No symptoms anymore! Cleared! So this is me hoping that everyone is recovering well and that you're in better spirits. I know this is a bit late, but since my last post was last September, I figured I'd do a wrap-up for 2021. It's never too late to look back and reflect on the lessons in the past, right? So I am catching up just to make sure I don't forget whatever lessons were actually under the bittersweet moments of last year. 1. Good days c...

August 6 "O baka naman positive pa ko sa Covid niyan ha..." I jokingly told Dennis before I had my swab test last week. We just finished my ultrasound for the nth time to see if I still need to undergo raspa and was given a deadline by my OB that if by the following week there would still be remaining products of conception, then I need to go through raspa... I was already sad with that news so imagine how shocked I was when the swab results came out and I found out that, on top of everything we were dealing with, I was indeed covid positive.

AUGUST 7 I haven't really gathered my thoughts enough for this post to sound coherent, but hey who says you have to wait for that eureka moment before writing down what's in your heart, right? Maybe I will just keep this under my personal file... forever saved under the drafts folder for my eyes only to look back on what happened years from now... It's August 7 today and well, I hope I can say all is finally well and my body has fully recovered, but that's not what happened. So no, I am not yet OKAY.

  Seas Waves will rock our boats Winds will threaten our sails Currents will try to pull our anchors offshore But come and see Take a closer look There’s someone in the boat with you He is unafraid He is in control He is holding your hand “Fear not, I AM here. I've got this.”

  July 20 We're still waiting for the baby to come out naturally. But honestly, all this waiting is good for the soul. Although there is that part of me that wants it to happen already so I can start recovering physically... like I want to move forward somehow the soonest time possible. But maybe that's why we are still here, in the waiting...  because so much more is accomplished when we quiet our souls. A week before we received the news that our baby is gone, God showed me a picture of a man sitting on a big rock with sheep at his feet. He had his back on me but he looks like a shepherd, overlooking the vast field, at peace, resting, unhurried... I immediately felt it was David.  I was asking God for career direction at that time and that was the picture He gave me. I thought I was still pregnant at that time, little did I know that the baby in my tummy was already gone.  Hmm... what does that mean? I was only looking for an answer regarding my career but apparent...

JULY 12 It was our 2nd ultrasound at 8 weeks and the line of questioning of the sonologist indicated that something was wrong. "Bakit pinaulit yung ultrasound?" "Hindi ka ba nagspospotting?" "Your doctor will be the one to explain it to you ha, ma'am." Something was also missing on the monitor. A blinking dot and a number of 100+ bps. I had been pregnant before so I knew when something was amiss.