Still

Do you still love me?

You asked

I blinked

Opened my mouth to say, of course

But my heart stopped me.

Do you still love me?

You repeated

I swallowed the lump in my throat

And asked myself

Have I forgotten You my King?

Have I replaced You with other things?

I closed my eyes

Held back the tears

And imagined myself sitting at Your feet

I miss you, my Lord

I miss the place where I met you

The place where it was just me and You

The place where I can answer you without a doubt 
That yes, I still love You

As guilt and shame flood my heart

I took a step back

But before I can even take another step

You say

You're forgiven, my child.

Then You held my hand

Lifted my face

And showed me the cross.

The cross made me pour out the tears 
I was trying to hold back

Then You held my face

Wiped away my tears

Then You said with the gentlest voice

As if to silence the doubt that has been filling my mind

Yes, my child, I still love you

I never stopped loving you.

And as I felt the tug in my heart

Bringing back the grace and love 
from where it all started

I smiled

Forgiven, redeemed

Filled with hope

I opened my mouth and said

Yes, Lord

I love You too.